Well here we go. I am looking for a job. I hate this stupid process. It always brings out the old tapes in my head. The ones that tell me that I am not good enough, not smart enough, not whatever enough. I have been trying to turn them off as soon as they start but some times I am more sucessfull than others.

I am trying to be very organized. I started with a priority list and tried to list all of the steps. It may seem like overkill but it helps me get the hamster off the wheel and think more clearly.

I came up to Ten. to visit my Mom and she had some computer program tutorials. I loaded them onto my computer and will add the typing program I have at home. This should help me sharpen my skills.

I am going to treat looking for a job like a job itself. This will I hope keep me out of the lay around and get depressed cycle that can sneek up on me if I am not careful. It will also I hope keep me out of the cycle of not thinking of anything else and narrowing my whole world to the search.

The rest of the family stuff is still intense but I have to keep telling myself that it is not my responsability. I can't fix it and so I can't worry about it.

If anyone hears of any job openings please let me know.